one fine day

ke pasar mlm td ptg.. sesaje nk lepas kn rindu kampung halaman..*konon je..

and guess what i saw a woman with niqab !!

Allah.. i've always loved to see niqabis.. terasa damai je.. no kidding here..

and if i say that i may became one of them one fine day later, it is not that people around me tak percaya.. i myself pon tak rasa kuat lg.. baru bertatih dgn these little thingy (socks, inner hijab, hand sock, etc)

i quoted this from one of my friend

"mmg kita nampak tenang, damai je bila tgok org pakai purdah, niqab suma tu.. tapi kalau rasa tak kuat lg nk berpurdah dan kalau rasa apa yg kita pakai ni dh boleh bawa solat.. keep on wearing like that.."

KEJELITAAN para bidadari syurga..siapakah WANITA DUNIA ITU?
Mereka adalah WANITA SOLEHAH..

Aisyah r.a berkata :
"Wanita-wanita solehah akan berkata kepada bidadari syurga..kami MELAKUKAN SOLAT sedangkan kamu tidak, kami BERPUASA sedangkan kamu tidak..kami BERSEDEKAH sedangkan kamu tidak, kami WANITA SOLEHAH DI DUNIA mengalahkan bidadari syurga.."

Inilah yang menyebabkan bidadari pun cemburu, dunia adalah PERHIASAN dan SEBAIK BAIK PERHIASAN ialah wanita solehah..di dunia lagi bidadari MENCEMBURUI KESOLEHANNYA dan di akhirat bidadari SUDI MENJADI KHADAMNYA..

p/s : Wanita solehah adalah WANITA TERBILANG..hatinya sentiasa TABAH DAN CEKAL, sifat-sifat MAHMUDAH sentiasa menghiasi dirinya..nur muslimah terpancar pada RAUT WAJAHNYA, ALLAH dan RASULULLAH sentiasa DITAATI..IBUBAPA sentiasa di hormati, sentiasa BERISTIQAMAH dalam hati..AL-QURAN dan AS SUNNAH menjadi pedoman dan ikutan..bidadari syurga amat mencemburui mereka, bidadari TUNDUK kepada mereka..INDAHNYA menjadi wanita solehah..

:: BIDADARI itu rupanya ADA DI BUMI ::

heyy.. i'm on twitter now!

mind blow

assalamualaikum..

what should I write, byk sgt tp sume dh bersepah bergelimpangan dlm otak nihh.. *temporary mental breakdown

went to kompleks falak alkhawarizmi for I.Chem.Tech pny family day

industrial visit yg tertangguh2

stress dgn computational mathematics

lab report yg bertimbun

subjects sem ni yg blh cakap sumenye susah nak hadam

assignment akhlaq

assignment fiqh

assignment munakahat

PRU - mcm laa i ni dh daftar kn *ini semua poyo

lega sikit sbb now typing this very entry kat BAITI JANNATI.. hoyeahhh!

ubat rindu kt haziq mubin sikit.. bubububu

Encik Nazirman yg skrg di zaman pasca result SPM, ongoing with his overflowing offer letter from university mane2 tah lah.. byk sgt..

for sure sy laa yg isi kan UPU dy..

after i've sorted out my mind.. that is when i'll update..

to be continued

dia kira perasaan itu kurniaan Allah

dia yakin perasaan itu bukan mainan

namun andai perasaan itu mungkin kearah maksiat

dia rela ia kekal rahsia

hingga

apabila waktu bukan lagi penghalang

apabila Allah merestu

apabila keluarga menguntum senyum

saat ini dia lebih memilih bayang daripada wajah

untuk dilihat

buat penghilang rindu

dia kini hebat

saat dia lebih memilih bucu hijab

daripada gambar

untuk ditatap

dia kini kuat

If You Forget Me-Pablo Neruda

I want you to know
one thing. 

You know how this is: 
if I look 
at the crystal moon, at the red branch 
of the slow autumn at my window, 
if I touch 
near the fire 
the impalpable ash 
or the wrinkled body of the log, 
everything carries me to you, 
as if everything that exists, 
aromas, light, metals, 
were little boats 
that sail 
toward those isles of yours that wait for me. 

Well, now, 
if little by little you stop loving me 
I shall stop loving you little by little. 

If suddenly 
you forget me 
do not look for me, 
for I shall already have forgotten you. 

If you think it long and mad, 
the wind of banners 
that passes through my life, 
and you decide 
to leave me at the shore 
of the heart where I have roots, 
remember 
that on that day, 
at that hour, 
I shall lift my arms 
and my roots will set off 
to seek another land. 

But 
if each day, 
each hour, 
you feel that you are destined for me 
with implacable sweetness, 
if each day a flower 
climbs up to your lips to seek me, 
ah my love, ah my own, 
in me all that fire is repeated, 
in me nothing is extinguished or forgotten, 
my love feeds on your love, beloved, 
and as long as you live it will be in your arms 
without leaving mine.

Pablo Neruda

little baby in the house

bismillah..

setelah hampir 14 tahun, keluarga zeera telah didatangi orang baru.. bkn anak zeera, ok!

jg bkn ank sedare zeera sbb zeera ni anak sulung.. impossible adk i nk langkah bendul i sbb dia baru je habis spm..huhu

tp adik.

17.12.2012

Haziq Mubin bin Harizan

(nama ni kaklong yg pilih tau)

part seronok nye tu, i remained as the only daughter in the family..xoxo

after a week mubin was born barulah kaklong dia ni berkesempatan pulang kekampung atas alasan study week.. jenguk adik nye laa.. tu pon a few days je yg sempat, sbb ada test History and Philosophy of Science on that very study week.. =.=" *sigh

zeera habiskan study week and the exam weeks tahan azab rindukan mubin.. perit sumpah!
study sket, bukak phone tengok muka mubin, then study blek..
not long after there were one of my friend did asks me

"kenape enti rindu kt mubin? dia bkn boleh bercakap lg pon.."

my tongue gone freeze.. tak terucap ape2 jawapan pun..

perasaan sayang, rindu pada family tu something yg bg sy x dpat diungkap dgn kata2.. it is something subjective, even beyond imagination..

another friend of mine yg tlg jawabkan

"zira tu rindu mubin sbb dh macam2 perasaan dia ade pada mubin"

yup, macam2 perasaan.. sedih, marah, suka, terasing, rindu.
me and mubin, we're like we came to this world from different mother. we only share the same father. when my father married my stepmom like 7 years ago after my parents parted their way one year back then, i had never imagined that i'd had a half-brother. had never imagined that there'd be someone who resembles my genetic characteristic,thus my physical appearance by half perhaps.

--->sedih masa mula dapat tahu, 

--->terasa terasing bila fikirkan kewujudan dia, 

--->tak sabar masa tunggu dia lahir, 

--->excited tengok dia membesar inch by inch inside ibu's womb,
--->senyum melebar masa dapat mms pic dia,

--->surfing the net n selak kamus masa pilih nama untuk dia like crazy
--->menghitung hari nk kiss pipi dia

9 months ago, when my father told me that she was pregnant, i was crying in almost every last sujud, where i kneed i bowed to Allah the Almighty asking Him to give me strength to give me reason so that i can accept his existance. and he answered my dua'a through His verses from the holy Quran. *tak igt dh ayat berapa n surah ape..
cuma roomies lama zeera je tahu my inhuman behaviour masa tu, mental breakdown. terima kasih jg utk diorang sbb bg kata2 semangat sebelum dan selepas mubin lahir..
"semoga zirah jadi kakak yg solehah"

3 weeks

1 months

saje kepilkan sekali yg ni, ni abgnye mubin.. alif.
same kn mata diorang. ^^ 
nnt kalu zeera ade anak, muka mcm ni pun dh puas hati sgt dh..hohoho gatal!

ada org cakap hidup zeera ni macam drama, banyak cerita2 yg selalunya nampak kt drama je. kalau dulu masa zeera kecil, means belum lg matang zeera rasa down sgt dgn all these plot, all these chapter of my life. kenapa hidup zeera x bahagia macam org lain, kenapa zeera x boleh dpt a perfect family mcm org lain.. semua tu zeera pertikai.
tp sekarang zeera tahu, zeera faham yg this imperfect life of mine that was unescapably perfectly written by Allah sebenarnya manis belaka. Allah uji zeera sikit saja sebab nak bagi zeera tahu menghargai nikmat. betapa org cakap nikmat tu nikmat yg tersangat nikmat.*kan dh unsur lewah

albaqarah verse 216. "Fighting (in the cause of Allah) is prescribed for you, although you dislike it. Yet it may happen that you dislike a thing while it is good for you; and it may happen that you love a thing while it is evil for you; surely Allah knows, and you know not."



its better to light a small candle than to curse the darkness