haip! tangan tu.. gatal kn?

Sunday, August 09, 2015

nak carik keje, nak carik keje

tak tahu cane nak luah perasaan hati ni.
baru lepas selak2 jobstr**t,
part online application. sebab macam dah tazzabar tggu..

takde pun company nak call.
takde pun dapat hint nak pergi interview.
rasa mcm useless gilaa dok berbulan2 apply job.
beratus2 job dah apply,
tapi jawapan dia huhuhuhuhuuuuuuuuuuuu...

sekali bukak,
*compare with 122 other applicants
*compare with 999 other applicants
*compare with 567 other applicants

okay, okay, okay..
rasa mcm nak nangis gila2!!!!!

tadi pergi career fair, and you know what?
sama ja macam hat yang vacancies punya iklan kat jobtuuuut tu.

-at least 2 years of experience
-at least 5 years of experience
-at least 10 years of experience

maka mungkin mereputlah zirah

lepas ni nak tulis 1 year of experience of UNEMPLOYMENT..

OK BAI.

Tuesday, December 30, 2014

Sonnet LXXXI: Rest with your dream inside my dream

Already, you are mine. Rest with your dream inside my dream.
Love, grief, labour, must sleep now.
Night revolves on invisible wheels
and joined to me you are pure as sleeping amber.

No one else will sleep with my dream, love.
You will go we will go joined by the waters of time.
No other one will travel the shadows with me,
only you, eternal nature, eternal sun, eternal moon.

Already your hands have opened their delicate fists
and let fall, without direction, their gentle signs,
you eyes enclosing themselves like two grey wings,

while I follow the waters you bring that take me onwards:
night, Earth, winds weave their fate, and already,
not only am I not without you, I alone am your dream


-Pablo Neruda

p/s: is there any poetry reading place that you know in Malaysia? tell me please.

Monday, November 24, 2014

Ujian datang lagi

Bismillah.

21 November 2014

I was suspected of having fibroid in the ...............

So the doctor suggested that I should go for ultrasound in either Serdang just in Penang. back to my hometown. and booked the date for operation.
betul, nak buat secepat mungkin tapi macam susah je, thesis yang due next week, poster presentation on 18th December, final exam, industrial training.

Allah......

nak call ibu ayah nak bagitahu pasal benda ni sangat lah susah. susah, really susah. 

I googled on the causes that might contribute to the occurrence of the fibroid of benign tumor or what so ever it is:


  • The monthly changes in the levels of oestrogen and progesterone are considered to be the most noteworthy factors contributing to this disease. These two hormones directly affect the b............. tissues by causing cells to grow and multiply.
  • Prolactin, growth factor, thyroid hormone and insulin also influence the development of b............ fibroids.
  • The b.............. produces hormonal products from its glandular and fat cells. These hormonal products send signals to the neighbouring b.............. cells. These signals are the key factors responsible for the development of b......... fibroids.

Zirah suggest sangat2, women out there please please do a frequent check on your body. No matter what age you are. because unexpected things could happened. 



Zirah harap boleh pergi intern on time, complete intern pun on time. so that boleh grad pun time. 

-SAKIT YANG KU RASA BIAR JADI PENAWAR DOSAKU-

Sunday, November 09, 2014

in my sky at twilight

for the record, I am a poem lover.

even though sometimes I may not be able to interpret the meaning underneath it.

and I love classic poems more than the modern ones.

Yes, I admit it here.

older poems, 

they are like there's a lot more than just lines of words

they're like there's a treasure chest or bunch of pearls that are waiting to be dig up.

couple days ago, I met this poem

and it turns that it is Pablo Neruda's

so I guess I might be his #1 hard die fan.


in my sky at twilight 

In my sky at twilight you are like a cloud
and your form and colour are the way I love them.
You are mine, mine, woman with sweet lips
and in your life my infinite dreams live.

The lamp of my soul dyes your feet,
the sour wine is sweeter on your lips,
oh reaper of my evening song,
how solitary dreams believe you to be mine!

You are mine, mine, I go shouting it to the afternoon's
wind, and the wind hauls on my widowed voice.
Huntress of the depth of my eyes, your plunder
stills your nocturnal regard as though it were water.

You are taken in the net of my music, my love,
and my nets of music are wide as the sky.
My soul is born on the shore of your eyes of mourning.
In your eyes of mourning the land of dreams begin. 




If you're into the same thing as me, I'd gladly suggest you to buy this book. It is a compilation of some great poems. 
This is not one of the twilight saga trilogy. ohkay?? 


How I wish someone would buy me this for my coming birthday next month
or I'd find this book at the Big Bad Wolf book sale this year.
Please BBW committee, do bring this book to Malaysia. okay?



Thursday, November 06, 2014

pre-internship dilemma


the future is unknown
the fate is God's secret
but the plan is in our hands.

I want to be Newton
I want to be Curie
but 
I want to be Shakespeare too
I want to be Dickinson too.

by then, I realized
that dream and reality aren't collided.
by then, I realized
to dream is on my own will
but to face reality isn't solely on human wills.

to the future unknown
the planner is me
the Decider is Him.