Saturday, January 12, 2019
Janji janji
Setiap janji yang kita bina,
Tidak satu baris pun aku lupa.
Hari ini,
aku kutip janji yang menghilang
dalam perjalanan waktu,
Hingga tiada yang tersisa lagi.
Bahawa tiada lagi kita,
Yang tinggal cuma kau,
dan aku.
Wednesday, January 02, 2019
Wrapping 2018
I hadn't wrote anything on this blog literally forever.
SubhanAllah.. So much time had passed.
01 Jan 2019
I'm reaching 27 years old this year. although i had just celebrated my birthday on 5th of Dec.
whatever, age is just a number.
So i talked to my mom on the phone yesterday night,
And ibu was like "i cant believe my only daughter is a grown up lady. With a career"
And i told her about how he 'left' without any words and explanation.
Honestly, 2018 was a roller coaster ride!
I tendered my resignation letter on Nov 2017 and i was expected to start my new job on Dec 2017. But! I retract the resignation letter just a couple days before i should be starting my new job. I was quite 'crazy' and stressed during the one month period of notice. My relationship wasn't doing well. And there's salary problem as well.
And on Mar 2018,
I got another job offer. I cant seem to reject this one. It was from a big and established company. And i will be closer to him as we had already planned for the future. Yaknowww.. Thus it will be easier.
May 2018,
Casted my vote for the general election. It was my first time. Right after that, packed everything and came to Bangi because i will be starting my new job the very next week.
Went to a 3 days vacation in Terengganu.
Q4 2018,
Didn't know what went wrong with my relationship. But it seems like it had ended. And I wasn't being notified?
I need a reason. I need to know why, how. At least i could move on. Tolong pulangkan hati saya yang awak dah ambil.
On the night of the new year, i had a really long conversation over the phone with my mom. And there's a sentence where ibu said
"As long as you're not yet married, ibu will always be worrying about you"
And i told ibu that it is better this way.
To be single and knowing that i am single. Rather than to be together, but having to walk alone.
Rather than to be married, but having to face everything alone.
Rather than to be married, but having to keep the real me in the dark.
Rather than to be married, but to a wrong person.
Dropped everything, had no more worries. I tried to love myself more. Because if i am not able to love my myself, how am i gonna love somebody else.
I went to work on new year, my family gave me a surprise visit all the way from North Perak. I hadn't had a proper meal since i woke up in the morning. Had an early dinner at 5.30 pm (well a very late lunch for me) with them in Bangi.
I HAD MY FIRST PROPER MEAL IN 2019, WITH MY FAMILY ðŸ˜
I know 2019 is also gonna be a tough year, come whatever may. I am ready insyaAllah.
Better days are coming.
SubhanAllah.. So much time had passed.
01 Jan 2019
I'm reaching 27 years old this year. although i had just celebrated my birthday on 5th of Dec.
whatever, age is just a number.
So i talked to my mom on the phone yesterday night,
And ibu was like "i cant believe my only daughter is a grown up lady. With a career"
And i told her about how he 'left' without any words and explanation.
Honestly, 2018 was a roller coaster ride!
I tendered my resignation letter on Nov 2017 and i was expected to start my new job on Dec 2017. But! I retract the resignation letter just a couple days before i should be starting my new job. I was quite 'crazy' and stressed during the one month period of notice. My relationship wasn't doing well. And there's salary problem as well.
And on Mar 2018,
I got another job offer. I cant seem to reject this one. It was from a big and established company. And i will be closer to him as we had already planned for the future. Yaknowww.. Thus it will be easier.
May 2018,
Casted my vote for the general election. It was my first time. Right after that, packed everything and came to Bangi because i will be starting my new job the very next week.
Went to a 3 days vacation in Terengganu.
Q4 2018,
Didn't know what went wrong with my relationship. But it seems like it had ended. And I wasn't being notified?
I need a reason. I need to know why, how. At least i could move on. Tolong pulangkan hati saya yang awak dah ambil.
On the night of the new year, i had a really long conversation over the phone with my mom. And there's a sentence where ibu said
"As long as you're not yet married, ibu will always be worrying about you"
And i told ibu that it is better this way.
To be single and knowing that i am single. Rather than to be together, but having to walk alone.
Rather than to be married, but having to face everything alone.
Rather than to be married, but having to keep the real me in the dark.
Rather than to be married, but to a wrong person.
Dropped everything, had no more worries. I tried to love myself more. Because if i am not able to love my myself, how am i gonna love somebody else.
I went to work on new year, my family gave me a surprise visit all the way from North Perak. I hadn't had a proper meal since i woke up in the morning. Had an early dinner at 5.30 pm (well a very late lunch for me) with them in Bangi.
I HAD MY FIRST PROPER MEAL IN 2019, WITH MY FAMILY ðŸ˜
I know 2019 is also gonna be a tough year, come whatever may. I am ready insyaAllah.
Better days are coming.
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