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Bismillah.

21 November 2014

I was suspected of having fibroid in the ...............

So the doctor suggested that I should go for ultrasound in either Serdang just in Penang. back to my hometown. and booked the date for operation.
betul, nak buat secepat mungkin tapi macam susah je, thesis yang due next week, poster presentation on 18th December, final exam, industrial training.

Allah......

nak call ibu ayah nak bagitahu pasal benda ni sangat lah susah. susah, really susah. 

I googled on the causes that might contribute to the occurrence of the fibroid of benign tumor or what so ever it is:

• The monthly changes in the levels of oestrogen and progesterone are considered to be the most noteworthy factors contributing to this disease. These two hormones directly affect the b............. tissues by causing cells to grow and multiply.
• Prolactin, growth factor, thyroid hormone and insulin also influence the development of b............ fibroids.
• The b.............. produces hormonal products from its glandular and fat cells. These hormonal products send signals to the neighbouring b.............. cells. These signals are the key factors responsible for the development of b......... fibroids.

Zirah suggest sangat2, women out there please please do a frequent check on your body. No matter what age you are. because unexpected things could happened. 

Zirah harap boleh pergi intern on time, complete intern pun on time. so that boleh grad pun time. 

-SAKIT YANG KU RASA BIAR JADI PENAWAR DOSAKU-

in my sky at twilight

for the record, I am a poem lover.

even though sometimes I may not be able to interpret the meaning underneath it.

and I love classic poems more than the modern ones.

Yes, I admit it here.

older poems, 

they are like there's a lot more than just lines of words

they're like there's a treasure chest or bunch of pearls that are waiting to be dig up.

couple days ago, I met this poem

and it turns that it is Pablo Neruda's

so I guess I might be his #1 hard die fan.

in my sky at twilight 

In my sky at twilight you are like a cloud
and your form and colour are the way I love them.
You are mine, mine, woman with sweet lips
and in your life my infinite dreams live.

The lamp of my soul dyes your feet,
the sour wine is sweeter on your lips,
oh reaper of my evening song,
how solitary dreams believe you to be mine!

You are mine, mine, I go shouting it to the afternoon's
wind, and the wind hauls on my widowed voice.
Huntress of the depth of my eyes, your plunder
stills your nocturnal regard as though it were water.

You are taken in the net of my music, my love,
and my nets of music are wide as the sky.
My soul is born on the shore of your eyes of mourning.
In your eyes of mourning the land of dreams begin. 

If you're into the same thing as me, I'd gladly suggest you to buy this book. It is a compilation of some great poems. 

This is not one of the twilight saga trilogy. ohkay?? 

How I wish someone would buy me this for my coming birthday next month

or I'd find this book at the Big Bad Wolf book sale this year.

Please BBW committee, do bring this book to Malaysia. okay?

pre-internship dilemma

the future is unknown

the fate is God's secret

but the plan is in our hands.

I want to be Newton

I want to be Curie

but 

I want to be Shakespeare too

I want to be Dickinson too.

by then, I realized

that dream and reality aren't collided.

by then, I realized

to dream is on my own will

but to face reality isn't solely on human wills.

to the future unknown
the planner is me

the Decider is Him.

sambung pengajian dalam bidang sains

Bismillahirahmanirrahim..

ermmm.. hari ni rasa mcm nak cerita pasal taking science as your major study.

Rasanya, kalau tak silap zirah we started to choose our field of study when we were in Form 4. kan? forgive me if I'm wrong. Cerita zirah, yes macam biasa penuh duri, ranjau, dan tak kurang juga bunga. hahaha~

Lepas PMR dulu, nak ambik kelas account sebab minat sgt belajar math. tapi x pun, masuk kls sains agama. in which I learnt science and Arabic on the same time.

Bila dah habis SPM, where my result tak berapa nak elok lah from my own point of view. kalau org lain yg tengok slip SPM zirah, entah lah apa pandangan dia kan.

So, went to Matriculation college then. Kalau zaman zirah dulu kitorang kena pilih nak ambik Physics ke Biology. Either to be a doctor or an engineer. Me? Physics lah. Dulu kecik2 malas makan kismis, sebab tu payah nk hafal benda2 bio nih.. ngee

Moving to university, taking chemistry as a major. Specialized in Industrial Chemistry. Mula2 belajar tu mmg lah, belajar balik benda2 basic kimia. macam boring je kan? hahaha.

number of moles 
molarity
weight percent
enthalphy
entrophy
Gibbs energy

tapi lama2 bila dah start buat Honour Seminar, Research Methodology, Thesis
by then zirah sedar, Ya ALLAH ketinggalan zaman betul zirah selama ni.

Dah hampir seratus tahun dah org produce ammonia. Tapi zirah x tahu.

masa tahun 1832 orang dah start discover aspirin. Tapi zirah x tahu pun compound ape yg ade dlm dia.

Dah nak dekat beribu tahun dah orang tahu ape tu ATOM, ELECTRONS, NUCLEONS NUMBER, AVOGADRO NUMBER.

tapi zirah, tapi kita? YES, we don't know about that.



belajar Science tak relate dgn Islam, dgn AlQuran? Sape cakap? meh ngaku cepat... hehe


Relate lah. ye, mmg takde dlm buku teks Science tu ayat quran. Awak kena cari dan kaji sendiri.
Macam ayat AlQuran pertama sekali yg turun, IQRA'

BACA,

ALLAH nak suruh kita cari ilmu, bukan tunggu ilmu datang cari kita.

Bila ALLAH kata semua benda dicipta berpasang-pasangan. ALLAH tak tipu, sekecil2 chromosome pun ade pasangan dia.

Hydrogen gas pun hadir dgn pasangan dia, H-H. Chlorine pun, Cl-Cl.

Jujur zirah cakap, learning Science ni macam satu peluang utk kita discover benda2 baru. Macam sekarang, zirah baru kenal Montmorillonite, Eugenol ester, membrane and so on.

but the choice is in your own hands.

*jeles tengok kawan2 dah grad, dah konvo. zirah tahun depan insyaALLAH.